When I started down this venture in 2008, there was an active blogging community that covered dogs. I was an idiot in those days and a far worse writer.
You got hits by being a pugilist. I punched. I got punched in return.
And it was okay.
But then the major blogging networks that held this fractious community together “went corporate, and all the organic aspects of this community died.
What we were left with just competition and vitriolic bellicosity.
I kept this up for as long as I could, but then I either grew up or just got tired of all the bullshit. It’s probably the latter.
I have yet to find a community in the real dog world that isn’t petty and dogmatic. Probably the only exception to this is my own Facebook group that is associated with this blog, but that is like the Island of Misfit Toys, where they are led by the ultimate broken jack-in-the-box (me).
I am never, ever going to be a super dog trainer. I don’t have the skills, and I’m not going to pretend that I have those skills anymore. I’ve tried to learn them. I just don’t have it.
It’s the toughest thing in the world for me to admit that I cannot do something.
Not everyone can read historical documents or peer-reviewed articles either.
That’s what I tell myself.
You may have noticed that the scope of this blog has changed a lot in the past few months. I am trying to find my voice again, and I think I do better as a story teller than what my grandpa called a cross between a prostitute and an encyclopedia: “a fucking know-it-all.”
I may lose readers if they don’t see the latest story about a dog bite or something stupid that a TV dog trainer did.
There still are places where you can read that stuff.
It’s just not me.
I’ve lost a lot of friends over the years. I don’t think anyone from that community still talks to me or links to me from the early days.
I have a few readers who have stayed with me for the long haul. They’ve seen my various evolutionary epochs.
And I now am the point where it I don’t think I will ever go back.
The conflict that exist because of the problems of the modern dog fancy have been solved in the grand scheme of things. In North America, the main multi-breed registries are essentially ignored. In Europe, there is just so much public pressure for reform that it will happen. It will happen as the older generations die off.
In the mean time, a lot of damage is going to be done, but because the people who are okay with the damage are so certain about their views, it is a waste of time deal with them.
Allow the attrition of the generations to take care of this problem.
I find myself falling into an anhedonic state when it comes to these issues.
But I also know the rightful place for me is in the wilderness.
The battles of dog people will go on.
I’m checking out.